Friday, May 11, 2012

Little Is Much When God Is In It

The words echo: "What do you want to do, then? Get married and have half-a-dozen kids?" "There's a very nice college down here...." her finger slid down a map, "they all wear uniforms there, skirts and blouses."

I see, in my mind, what I always see when I think of what the world thinks of me. My ambitions. My dreams. Cold, awkward faces that don't understand. Minds that think "She'll never be anything important."

I remember my own dreams of fame, wherein crowds loved me and asked for my autograph. There were rounds of applause and a stages and fancy clothes. There were dreams of delivering children - seeing the first breath, hearing the first cry. There might have been  hopes of  being in on the action at the hospital. I dreamed of being great. I dreamed of being admired. I dreamed of what I wanted. Sometimes, I also dreamed practically.

But God said: "No." To practicality, fame, and, comfort among many peers.

I didn't want to give up my own ideas, but I knew better than to walk over God's will for me. Thus, reluctantly, yet gravely, I turned loose my ambition and faced the struggle of "What I'm going to be when I grow up" as the Lord's will was concerned.

 What I believed He began to reveal to me, in light of my old dreams, was of pale comparison. My gaze fell from the star on the stage to the woman watching her. From the height of "classy" to a more sensible stair of "practical."

People would gawk and click their tongues in pity. They would criticize and push for a more "fulfilling" life for me. There would be persecution. There would be loneliness. There might be hurt. I'd be nothing. To others, this might be pointless.  Except, of course, (All Christian girls would hurry to say,) that God has some plan for this.

That last little nugget of truth, is what we do not see clearly. Easily, we can see the looming trials and negativity awaiting a girl or boy who God calls to some "lowly" station in life. But, we have a hard time seeing the spiritual side.

Sometimes, we forget about the angel of the Lord that "encamps about those who fear him" and the kingdom of heaven wherein we want to hear "Well done my good and faithful servant. Enter ye into the joys of the Lord." (Pardon. I paraphrase a lot.) We forget that power of our God. We forget that "His ways are not our own." We hang on too tightly to this earthly "reality" and forget the spiritual war that we are fighting in.

When you really think of what it will be like when you see Jesus - how that special presence must radiate from Him and how beautiful that voice will sound as, maybe, the tears slide down your cheeks, and He tells you not to cry; when you know how wise He is and how much He loves you. When you know that He has a reason: Then, when you find that God's will (for you ) is working at McDonald's or being a cleaning lady, trash man, keeper at home, etc.  you can say to yourself; "Know ye not, that I must be about the Father's business?"

You don't have to know why God put you there, but remember that God knows best.

 You could be a famous speaker, you could be a college graduate, you could be a millionaire - But remember to "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness" and also that "Little is much when God is in it."


Mama said...

Knowing what God's will is for each of us, is so important! You can be certain that He has given you everything you will ever need to fulfill His calling in your life.

I wish I could say that the road will be easy and that people will get behind you and appreciate what you are doing, but, sadly the things that God calls great, man calls foolish.

But that does not diminish the fact that if you can withstand the "peer-pressure" and not cave to societies views, you will experience fulfillment, joy, peace and contentment that you never dreamed possible.

Dying daily is not an easy thing,whether that's death to our ambitions, dreams, desires, egos or our own selfishness.

You are an amazing young lady and please know that I will always love you.

"Whatever you do in word or deed, do all as unto the Lord".

Anna said...

Thank you for the encouragement, Mama. It's nice to have a mom who cares. :)

Bethany Grace said...

Anna - this was absolutely a beautiful reminder and so refreshing. I admit, I've been in the same boat, practically! But you couldn't have answered it better.

~ Bethany

Anna said...

Thank you for your kind comment, Bethany. :) I'll be praying for you.