Thank you for normal.
Thank you for two in diapers who love to play together.
Who tear apart cabinets together.
Who chase each other around the couch, screaming with laughter together.
This day. Full of so much, but really only one, simple thing: togetherness. All the way togetherness.
The kind that bawls for more milk at supper.
And sounds like hard, flying footfalls that pound into my lap when I sit down.
It feels like tiny arms flung around my neck; like the whispering breath of them when they fall asleep on my shoulder.
I would have happily paid a thousand dollars to skip here to these days, ten months ago as I stared at the ghost of a woman that I beheld in the mirror. All stretched out, and pale, with deep, horrible blue circles under both eyes.
I had hemorrhaged in the hospital after birthing Hope, and the days that followed were no picnic. The soft weight of her against me paid for everything, but every day I promised myself that it would get better soon. The wild crying of my confused 18 month old. The aching, exhaustion. The hurting. The wanting to cry and not being able to.
And it all did. It all always does. Joy in the morning.
Thinking back, I realize that this year has really been pretty crazy for a ton of reasons (not just having two kids), but here on the other side of the waterfall, I know that me, and Ethan, and God, and these two kids are closer than before. Stronger. Deeper in love.
So many happy times have completely overwhelmed and outweighed the others. Too many to count. Probably too many to even remember correctly.
What a gift that is.
It's amazing to be so loved by two little people, that they can't leave your side for a second. To be so needed until they have to come searching through the house when they just need a hug, or a quick game of "peek-a-boo."
Thank you for normal.
And Thank you for chaos.
And hurting times.
And weeping times.
Because they're all TOGETHER times.
Nothing can separate us from the Love of God. Pulled into a strong hug from my logger man, I feel that. In the plaintive MOM?! from the other side of the house, I hear that. Resting here for two seconds, in this messy house with so much to do...I have to realize that all this mess and crazy is all wrapped up together into a world that I would never want to be without again.
How happy to be totally happy. How wonderful to be loved.
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